Current location:	John and Tyler's Apt, Atascadero, CA
Current mood:	cold
Current music:	Damien Jurado "Go First"

i missed a day and was disappointed in myself.


"Set me as a seal upon your heart,
as a seal upon your arm,
for love is strong as death,
jealousy is fierce as the grave.
Its flashes are flashes of fire,
the very flame of the LORD."

-Song of Solomon 8:6

interesting things occured since my last post. what a difference a weekend can make.

to begin, i found out at work today that my promotion to a shift supervisor that was supposed to start at the end of this month is now no longer happening. not because of any fault of mine though, but because the two shifts that said that they were going to quit (because they were getting other jobs) are no longer leaving and thus there isnt room really for me to be promoted anymore. i am still a bit unsure how i feel about this really. i mean i understand the situation. they dont need me to be promoted right now so i need to be but i was hoping and kind of relying on this promotion for certain things and i used my vacation time when i did for a reason, and now im coming up on my 2 years being at the same store, im wondering if i should bother still being there if i know im not going to move up in the company for a while, you know what i mean? and if they keep promoting people like they do, then i dont know if im being respected like i should. if i get on the outage, which i hope to do this january, theres no question of me quitting this time around. and theres also the quite small possibility of moving in place of tyler for a bit this winter as well, which would also give a me reason to quit. (haha... like i need a big enough reason to) but really the problem is they rely way too much on me right now and i feel as though im not getting paid what i should be. and after todays news, i dont know if there is enough reason for me to hang around...

on the plus side, theres a new guy that started at work who is fun to work with, well so far anyways. he could be a pain later on... haha. but his name is jon and hes originally from seattle. hes lived here for a month and doesnt know where in & out is, which i dont understand since he has to drive past it on the freeway to get to starbucks. i scolded him and then told him to get a burger when he gets off of work. i am thinking of befriending him, even though hes just a regular dude, just because he doesnt know anyone and obviously has no idea what hes doing here. plus hes 27 and thought i was 19 years old. that i just found hilarious. the good thing about him too is that he adds a bit more testosterone to our store which was previously found only in my beard. seriously.

oddly enough, it seems that my photography gigs are becoming more numerous lately. im shooting a wedding for a co-workers friend at the beginning of this month which will pay me enough to hopefully get me a new camera. from what she described it seemed like an easy wedding to shoot and because of such late notice (i was asked a month before the wedding date! who does that?!), i charged them more than usual. also, i have 2 other weddings for sure happening next year too which is exciting. but really i am just excited that this gives me the excuse to buy a new camera. i am pretty much set on getting a canon 40d, because the kit comes with the lens i want for not that much more than just a camera body, and i found one online for a good price. since the release of the 50d as well, the 40d has gone down in price too, but i just want to get it before the holidays come and people pounce on any deals they see. other than this, i need to get a new computer to handle these bigger images and finally learn how to do some photo editing soon. hopefully learn lightroom at least. but im glad that i took the time to build my website while i was in oklahoma because my photo marketing scheme ended up being the deciding factor in which she chose me over other photographers! yay internets! also, whitney was telling me yesterday about her mom wants me to shoot their family photos. oh how fun THAT would be...

friday night i finally finished the season 4 finale of lost and have now officially seen every episode to date. now i can conversate with the best of them and can get excited about the new season starting early next year. but it kinda sucks because now i have nothing to watch online. oh well, i guess i can catch up on what i missed on the office last season.

im almost to the point of my beard and hair length that i have wanted for a while. well kinda. i, at least, can look in the mirror now and like what i see. ive missed the beard for sure and i think im gonna like the long hair with it too. well, hopefully. today a customer at work said i had really weird poofy hair. what is up with that?! had a dream about joe having a lot of cool tattoos and then it made me want to get some tattoos and then today i remembered an old idea i had for some tattoos.

new sf59 album comes out soon. looking forward to that. also, i have been listening to the new damien jurado album lately and i really enjoy it. well, other than the songs i had previously as demos and then heard the album version and hated. gross.

i kind of tire of these days lately. but i think i might just be tired.
plus, i dont think i have anywhere to go anymore. sad but true.

also, i need a beard related costume this halloween. preferably something classic. thanx.