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i still need to send those care packages...


happy new year everyone.

the past week i have been majorly ill. like, pretty much i had a deadly flu virus that kept me from really doing anything except sleeping. seriously, i was so aching all over my body that i could barely stand let alone move for long periods of time. even the internet was too taxing upon my body... typing was too much of a dexterious task for me to handle. i spent most of the days watching stupid vh1/mtv shows or watching bad movies on tv like just my luck starring lindsay lohan, duplex starring drew barrymore and ben stiller or not another teen movie, which was only fun to watch because it referenced so many of those stupid teen movies it was exciting just to know what they were talking about half of the time. haha. i actually have never watched tv more in the past few years then i probably did during this past week. for serious. but i got so sick of it, that i got frustrated at being sick because i couldnt do anything else. sorry that sounds stupid. but i hate being sick... i feel like a lazy useless sack o' crap when i am sick because i cant do anything and i cant be around anyone because i will infect them. very rarely do i get sick, usually about 3 times out of the year, and usually in winter, but it hasnt been this bad in a while. i even called in sick for two days at work which i havent done since i started. i feel bad because i think the store relies on me too much, but i didnt want to get everyone else sick too, especially always sharing those headsets. i think because i am not sick very often so when i am, it hits me hard i guess. well anyways, i feel a lot better now, with only a little stuffy nose here and there and a mildly sore throat. i was sick over new years too but i still went out to celebrate between the hours of 10pm and 1am... it was kind of silly of me because i was sick at home all day and thenjust went out at night almost later than anyone should in condition... but i even danced! ha! anyways, everyone was over at jesse and jer's house and it was fun even though i was in such a sickly state. it was nice to see everyone in one place too. plus i got kissed (yes, i got kissed. they kissed me and i did not kiss them) by not one, but two people that night. sucks that they were both dudes though... ha! at least jesse stole my gum, i mean... whoops! "spicy kisser over here!"

christmas time was fine. nothing too fancy or special, but it never really is anymore, at least in these past few years. i kinda long for the days when i have children so i can get excited about giving them gifts that they want and enjoy, because i do enjoy giving gifts and finding stuff that people will like, but i feel as though i dont really have anything worthwhile to give right now. i like the excitement that opening christmas presents does though... the surprise and the anxiousness and the mystery of whats inside... its so much fun! plus kids generally just like getting anything and i love to see their faces when they do. but anyways, ive made a few care packages to send to a few friends that live in other cities and states, and a few gifts locally of course, but no one else really. i dont know... kinda sucks i guess. but i think i just want a family to start most of all. but as for what i received this christmas, (because thats what you usually do, tell people what you got, right?) my mom gave me an external 250gb hard drive, a $50 credit to get kodak prints online (i think this came with her camera but she doesnt know how to use the internet so she gave it to me) and a movie theatre gift certificate (which was probably re-gifted but who cares). this is fairly typical of my mom to buy me on christmas as of the past few years. something that is not overly personal, but handy and that i can use for the most part. last year she gave me a leather laptop bag. one year she gave me a portable dvd player... cool yes, but i dont watch movies very often and own about 7 dvds. not to sound ungrateful but its kind of a letdown, you know what i mean? because i opened it and was like, "oh. thanks." not like its bad or anything, but i guess i kinda miss the gift opening experiences that i had as a kid when christmas day was so fun and opening presents was something you waited all year for. but i am thankful that i still get anything at all. ha. as for other presents from other family members, my aunts and uncles gave me the usual envelope with a $20 bill, and one of my aunts gave me movie tickets to a theatre that we dont have on the central coast, so i guess i have to go to santa maria to use it. haha. and my grandpa who i havent seen in so many years gave me $100, which is kinda crazy to me because i dont really have a relationship with him at all, but i think i may be his only grandson. this would my dads dad, who i dont remember seeing very much of ever in my life... not even sure what he looks like to be honest. my mom wants me to write a thank you note to him, which i probably will, but a part of me is scared/feels awkward doing because i dont know what to say in it. im not just gonna write "thank you" because if im gonna go through the trouble of writing something at all, im probably gonna write a lot (as you can see here) but i am unsure as of what to say. perhaps a minor synopsis of my life... i dont know. ill think of something.

anyways, i wasnt sure what i was going to do with all of this money as my wallet is literally bursting with cash right now, but i think im going to buy an external flash for my camera, which im sure i will love once i get used to it. i think i have enough polaroid film to last me into the next 3 years so i wont be buying any of that for a while, but i am also interested in getting the tomy xiao from japan if possible, which is the pogo printer with a digital camera attached. silly i know, but it looks like this is the new polaroid of the digital age. i might was well get the first version of it. but other than the flash, and maybe a new lens or a new computer, i am unsure what to spend money on lately. perhaps nothing... maybe ill just save it instead. especially with the economy the way it is nowadays, i shouldnt be wasting what few dollars i do have to my name. although i have been buying a large amount polaroid film as of late, to where this year will probably be the year i take more film photos than i ever have before in my whole life. but hey, im happy about that. also this year, at least so far, i know of 11 weddings/engagements happening this year. and i thought last year was ridiculous, but this is getting out of hand. im not even sure how im gonna go to all of them to be honest...

we had our sbux 10130 store christmas party a few weeks ago. that was pretty fun. basically a huge photo session, but hey, thats all right with me. becky was my secret snowflake and i had no idea. i thought it was danielle this whole time and i was so wrong... i suck at guessing. she got me a bunch of cool stuff though. i was glad i got her... well, minus the very small and tight pink fierce shirt she got me. haha. i had stan as my ss, and i got him the most random stuff ever it was ridiculous. but the old fireworks i got him at the end seem to please him so i was pleased as well. jons back from seattle and im stoked to be working with him again... that is until he decided to quit the week he got back that jerk. we had a good last day with him though... not too busy and we ordered pizza too! he still wants me to work at applebees with him and make that cash money and im almost contemplating doing it just so we could hang out. but to be honest, i still dont really care that much about making more money. maybe though... i dont know. looks like another night at terry's will soon be upon us... haha. and this time, everyone wants to go. oh dear. i cant wait.